Blackbear - The Afterglow Album Lyrics

I think I drank too much
I'm still afraid of growing up
And slowin' down too soon
When the fireworks go off
Balloons will fall the ball it drops
This is New Years
I wanted to let you know
I thought of you
It's all for you
I changed the way
I thought of you
Revolving you
The Sun the Moon
And seasons change
They fall for you

The runaround
Exhausted you
The snow we watched
Defrosts to rain
It's pouring down
On top of you
The words we want, to take away
So we take back the shit that we say 'cause it got in the way
All the feelins that stay will escape
But repeatedly come back on days like today
To display this array on my day, on my face it is written
I can't stop and listen
I'm sitting here wishing that I could dismiss it
But the money and women don't help with decisions
There's no place like home but I'm focused on living
Don't know my limits
The sky is my feeling
No fucks that I'm giving
I might need a minute
Tell Lord I've been sinning
I'm holding my hands and I pray for forgiveness
I might need a minute

I think I drank too much
I'm still afraid of growin' up
And slowin' down too soon
Slowin' down too soon
When the fireworks go off, balloons will fall the ball it drops
This is New Years
I wanted to let you know
I thought of you
It's all for you
I changed the way
I thought of you
Revolving you
The Sun the Moon
And seasons change
They fall for you

Good morning, mimosa
Cocktails in the summer afternoon
Spent the evening hung over
Champagne for the night time blues
'Cause I got a new girl
She's nothin' like you
She don't do anything like you used to do
And I miss the thunder in California
All the glory and wonder
Where's the southern comfort

In the winter my brother he said man fuck her find another
Keep your head up, this is summer
Funny how I had that same younger attitude
My mother said don't rush to be grown
'Cause them valley girls will always have some growin' up to do

I ain't lookin' for, lookin' for love
Just lookin' for someone to fuck
I ain't lookin' for, lookin' for love
I don't need none of that
'Cause I can't wait for you
Can't stay for you
Won't change for you
And I don't want the same things as you
Not chasin' you
Not blamin' you
But I don't want the same things

And forever goes a long way
I'm usually patient
I'm tired of waiting all the time
Usually faded all the time

I ain't lookin' for, lookin' for love
Just want you to, want you to know
I'm just lookin' for, lookin' for somebody to fuck
Just for the night, I swear
I swear
If all you want is a quick fuck
Then let's go

'Cause I can't wait for you
Can't stay for you
Won't change for you
And I don't want the same things as you
Not chasin' you
Not blamin' you
But I don't want the same things
No, I don't want the same things
I don't want the same things
I ain't lookin' for, lookin' for love
I'm just lookin' for, lookin' for drugs
Just lookin' for, lookin' for drugs
Just lookin' for, lookin' for drugs
Just lookin' for, lookin' for drugs
Just lookin' for, lookin' for drugs

I just bought some drugs
Off a man that didn't know
In the lobby
The lobby of the Roosevelt
As if you didn't warn me enough

I got that Califormula
Got that Califormula
One more night
I got that Califormula
No use in thinkin' 'bout you now
'Cause you're gone, you're gone
You're gone
So I leave it all behind
I always feel like I'm behind you
I tried to sleep, but I
I'm faded out my mind
Lay me down tonight
I always feel like I'm beside ya

I got that Califormula
Got that Califormula
One more night
I got that Califormula

One more night
Got that Califormula
Thinkin' 'bout you now
You now, you now
Where are you
Where are you goin
You're gone
You're gone
You're gone
You're gone
You're gone
Gone
Gone
You're gone
Gone

Was it even real to you, baby?
'Cause it was real to me
Was it even real?
'Cause if it was real
Where are you goin'?
Is it still the same way that you wanted it?
The same way that you needed it?
So tell me if it's real
Baby, tell me if it's real
Tell me how you feel

I wear no color today
Window sounds of rain
Nobody at the bar
LA is grey today

Where are you now?
Where are you goin'?
Is it still the same way that you remember it?
Or was it ill praised when it was over with?
Where are you now?
Where are we goin'?
Do you wanna change the way you remember it?
Do you wanna cha-?

Was it even real to you, baby?
'Cause it was real to me
Was it even real?
'Cause if it was real
Where the fuck are you goin'?

Is it still the same way that you wanted it?
The same way that you needed it?
So tell me if it's real
So tell me if it's real
Fuckin' tell me how you feel

Lesson learned

Where are you now?
Where are you goin'?

Where are you now?
Where are we goin'?
'Cause I just wanna feel you now
Just wanna feel you now, yeah
So tell me if it's real
Tell me how you feel
'Cause I just wanna lay you down
Just wanna feel you now

When I woke up, 6 PM
Sleepin in your bed again
Your ghost
Keeps me lonely
All the while
I'm burnin for you
For you

And this could be
Just what you need
Just dim the lights
Cut your ties
Break down this line

The mood is right
You burn inside of me
You're burnin' inside of me
You burn

And I'm still alive in you
I'm still alive
I'm still on fire for you
It's burnin inside

No use in thinkin bout it now
You're gone
You're gone
You're gone
And I'll be what you want
I'll be what you need
I can love you more

So what could be better, she tries to remember
A time when the weather, was warm enough
To swim in September, got sick and got better
By middle November, it tore me up

The time was just flyin
I'm tryin, rewindin
Ask me if I'm lyin
I'm yellin, you're cryin
I love you I'm sorry
Let's drop it my bad

It's not worth the work we put in what we have
After that, dysfunction between us was gettin to me
But maybe dysfunction is just what you need
And maybe there's comfort in rippin the seams

You can't reap what you sow till you learn what you teach
So you left out of spite, and my pride watched you leave
And conjunction dysfunction was the greatest disease
The greatest

The greatest you ever had
The greatest in the world

And I'm still alive in you
I'm still alive
I'm still on fire for you
It's burnin inside

No use in thinkin bout you now
You're gone
You're gone
You're gone
In you
And I'll be what you want