J Cole - 958 Pm Lyrics

[Intro]
Yeah
I remember I would just go on YouTube and listen to the loop of this for hours on end

[Verse]
Can't be bothered to think of opening lines
Hard to think straight when you know it's your time
And your attention's fixed on how your life's showing the signs
And you just wanna get your thoughts out, you're not focused on rhymes
Got school in the morning, I'm supposed to be sleeping
I'm too motivated to and my anxiety's tweaking
Way too many thoughts at once, got me feeling surrounded
Usually, I'd get doubtful, but I know that's dumb-sounding
How could I doubt myself when these people believe in me?
I'm getting to know the good person that they see in me
Other kids in the class wouldn't leave him be
Or just talk to him and then at him in secrecy
Got to know himself a little and he ran with it
Realized it was okay to be so damn timid
Put it all in song, now he's finna advance with it
Even if the ones around him don't follow his plans with him
Trying to find myself cost me a boyfriend, that's tough
Saw the bad that I was causing, things were running amuck
I'm out the equation, and now he's happier than he was
That's what I wanted, hope he doesn't think I left just because
Now I'm trying to figure things out for myself
How to kill off the self-blame and doubt that I felt
Found my wings, I'm just learning how to fly, so let me spread them
They gon' say I'm taking too much room, talk? Imma let em
Thinking back to when Cudi stopped me from doing something stupid
I almost jumped, thank God I wasn't bold enough to do it
Him, T, and Bino made me feel less alone
Like I'm not the only weird black kid they've ever known
Felt validated and represented for once
Happy even though I would still sit alone at lunch
I was listening to Good Kid, m.A.A.d city on the bus
Black Boy Fly on repeat when I felt like giving up
The music was there when I thought no one cared for me
Now I wanna be here for you like it was there for me
First I gotta kill these thoughts of what I'm scared to see
So I can be the person I prepare to be
Losing track of the bars, documenting this moment
Now it's 10:40 PM, losing time to my focus
Got a DM from Hospey, that just made me remember
We gotta talk about our plans to take over November
[Outro]
You'll find out what I mean later (laughs)
This shit sounds beautiful
Yeah
And we out