Machine Gun Kelly - Dont Let Me Go Lyrics

Lately my thoughts eatin' me alive
Laid in the bed, thinkin' maybe the hate'll finally go away if I'm not alive
Wish I didn't listen, just like I wish they would understand me one time
I had a breakdown and tatted my entire body except one line
Everything's just fine
(Slippin' again) there I go, slippin' again
I'm actin' different again
I see my family's reflection every time I look in the cup and I sip it again
(After this ends) tell me, after all this ends
Will I be mentioned again?
Why do I care?
If in the end it's just me and God, like I'm Christian again

Yeah
Slim, bring the beat in

Before my dad left this Earth
He made sure I took on every quality I didn't want
I was supposed to die at birth
Gave me a chance and I fucked it up, give me another one (mmm)
I've been runnin' from
Secrets I hid as a kid and I never confronted 'em
I just called ma, said I forgive her for not bein' there when I needed one

I'm comin' back, just let me go
I'm comin' back, just let me go, yeah
I'm comin' back, just let me go
I'm comin' back, don't let me go

Who am I when the music stops?
And the character that I been playin' is really just broken and fuckin' lost?
I swear I've been tellin' you over and over again in all of these songs
But they don't hear nothin' I'm writin' 'cause they're too busy tryna write me off
And they go on and on and on
It's funny, 'cause if we just sat and talked
You'd see that it's just hard for me to be vulnerable 'cause I blocked it off
I got trust issues, growin' up no one was there to hear what I thought
My heart was broken like my ribs as a kid when me and my father fought
Yeah
I'm medicatin' with something that I cannot pronounce, but it's what the doctor gave me
Rehab patient with a pen and some paper (mmm), this psychiatrist keeps evaluatin'
How can I live with the fact that my hand wasn't on her stomach when we lost the baby?
I don't got no one to turn to 'cause everyone's dead in my life that was tryna raise me
Searchin' for someone to tell me who I really am, I don't know when I look in the mirror
Constantly dreadin' the day that the audience might not be screamin' for me anymore
The feeling of dyin' alone and not leavin' anything behind is my biggest fear
Kiss the person that I love as if I'm never comin' back after I leave out the door

I'm comin' back, just let me go (feelin' like)
I'm comin' back, just let me go, yeah
I'm comin' back, just let me go
I'm comin' back, don't let me go (mmm)

I'm comin' back, just let me go (mmm)
I'm comin' back, just let me go, yeah (mmm)
I'm comin' back, just let me go (mmm)
I'm comin' back, don't let me go