I want it to be like messy
I'm so insecure, I think
That I'll die before I drink
And I'm so caught up in the news
Of who likes me, and who hates you
And I'm so tired that I might
Quit my job, start a new life
And they'd all be so disappointed
'Cause who am I, if not exploited
And I'm so sick of seventeen
Where's my fucking teenage dream?
If someone tells me one more time
"Enjoy your youth", I'm gonna cry
And I don't stick up for myself
I'm anxious, anything can help
And I wish I'd done this before
And I wish people liked me more
All I did was turn my back
This the kinda thing's bullshit
I wanna let me be upset (Upset, oh)
They say these are the golden years
But I wish I could disappear
Ego crush is so severe
God, it's brutal out here
I feel like no one wants me
And I hate the way I'm perceived
I only have two real friends
And lately, I'm a nervous wreck
'Cause I love people I don't like
And I hate every song I write
And I'm not cool, and I'm not smart
And I can't even parallel park
All I did was turn my back
This the kinda thing's bullshit
I wanna let me be upset (Upset, oh)
They say these are the golden years
But I wish I could disappear
Ego crush is so severe
God, it's brutal out here
She's having a really good time
Got a broken ego, broken heart
God, I don't even know where to start