Soja - Bleed Through Lyrics

Every time I pick up a pen, it's all you
And there beside me in my mirror, all I can see is us two
The pages turn so fast, and like all old pages do
The words, they bleed through

Get back in my arms, they're just hanging by my side
Losing hold of you has left me dry
Tell me where you run to where do you hide?
You know you never once left my mind
Tell yourself I'm sorry for the things that I've done
Tell yourself you've never seen the barrel of that gun
Tell yourself it's over now and not to run
Just tell yourself I'm sorry for what I've done

'Cause
Every time I pick up a pen, it's all you
And there beside me in my mirror, all I can see is us two
The pages turn so fast, and like all old pages do
The words, they bleed through

Listen while I'm talking, I don't do it to much
I can't help feeling that came between us
What ever happened to the way that it was?
The one thing I can't have is what I want
Who decided its gonna end up this way?
Who decided that you could not stay?
You want be here by the end of my day
'Cause I can't even listen to the words I say

But
Every time I pick up a pen, it's still you
And there beside me in my mirror, all I can see is us two
The pages turn so fast, and like all old pages do
The words, they bleed through

I swear you never really miss it till its half gone
And you tighten up your grip trying to hold on
Didn't really appreciate it when its in your arms
And you can relate to every word in your song
Like was I wrong? Buti know I'm right
But in hindsight, I blame the limelight
Maybe I just needed time to get my mind right
Maybe we'll reconnect when the times right
I'm trying to think about the causes
Was I too bossy? Exactly what the cause is
I was told to step in love with some caution
'Cause love and shit is no difference in the darkness
But love is where the heart is
And you can see the blood as it's dripping through the gauzes
So I guess I fell out of love whit her smile and more in love with applauses

It's quiet in my house, your silence is my home
And everything reminds me, that I am all alone
It's quite where you used to be, and now that you're gone
It's not a sound, not a word, but a dial tone
Its quiet when I'm drinking its quiet when I smoke
It's when I'm eating, oh and I sleep all alone
Its quiet now, it was louder then, I stand still like a stone
Only from my dreams you want go

Every time I pick up a pen, it's all you
And there beside me in my mirror, all I can see is us two
The pages turn so fast, and like all old pages do
The words, they bleed through

How did I get in this predicament?
Was I influenced by the benefits?
'Cause I was hitting on so many chicks
Loving you and eaving you was the only sentiment
But I guess I wasn't ready for you
'Cause I'm ubbing your feet, cooking spaghetti for you
Taking you to parks, winning teddies for you
But in my heart I'm thinking there's someone better for you
But my hearts like: No, not this again
Cut it out black, you know how this'll end
And I swear that I really was listening
But my was yelling and my heart was just whispering
So you know who I listened to
Now my hearts bitching 'cause he's missing you
Got my eyes staring at some old flicks of you
And my nose swear that he still smells the scent of you
And my soul's saying: Damn, she was meant for you
And my soul's saying: Damn, she was meant for you
And my soul's saying: Damn, she was meant for you
And my soul's saying: Damn, she was meant for you

Why won't come back
I'm losing part of myself
I've been wondering, watching
Waiting so long
I've been talking I been listening
I've been writing my songs
I've been hoping you've been
Hearing on this radio now
That I'm not with you
But I miss you